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Enlightenment Monday’s : Gruff! : Finding Inspiration In The Oddest Of Places

Enlightenment Monday’s. I realized pretty quickly that I needed to give these Monday posts of my mine, a name. Since this month has been so fruitful in answers and direction, I feel enlightenment is the perfect word to describe these posts.

To be honest, I didn’t think I would be sitting here writing another one of these posts. Up until yesterday, this past week hadn’t been so forth coming with answers. That’s ok. Or at least, that’s what I was telling myself. I mean this is my month to be still and I cannot expect an answer every time I turn around. That isn’t how it works.

So I continued on, business as usual. Speaking to God, enjoying my family, and working on my goals. Then, yesterday we took our preschooler to see a children’s play.

Gruff! The Three Billy Goats Musical

Isn’t it funny how sometimes we gain insight or inspiration in the unlikely of places? I sure didn’t think I would be getting mine from a children’s musical. Watching the actors chase each other through the aisles, as the audience laughed in excitement. Nevertheless, there I was, plagued with inspiration. It was as if God was saying, Open your eyes and look closely at everything surrounding you.

In truth, I knew nothing of this play. I had never even heard of this tale before. So I don’t know if this was the original story line or another version. What I can tell you, is the one I saw, was three versions of the same story rolled into one.

The musical began with a boy who longed to cross a bridge and see the world, but was too afraid. The narrator then sat him down to listen to a story about the troll who lived under the bridge and the three billy goats who were trying to cross it.

First, the story was told from the perspective of the three billy goats. Although the troll was insistent the events happened differently. So the story was then told from the point of view of the troll himself.

Then, the narrator explained this story in fact had nothing to do with the goats or the troll. This story was about a young boy who wanted to see the world and find his way. He learned that everyone has something to offer. It’s merely about finding it and using it to his full potential. And although he was afraid to embark on this new journey, he must {Brave} and do it anyway. 

“There are those who say fate is something beyond our command, that destiny is not our own. But I know better. Our fate lives within us… you only have to be brave enough to see it.” – Merida, Brave

If that wasn’t enough of a nudge, God decided to then give me a gentle shove. Saturday night also happened to be date night for the hubby and I. While we love going to movies or checking errands off our list that are far easy to get done without the kids, my favorite nights by far are the ones with no movie or set plan. Those dates are set with a relaxing tone and filled with conversation.

One topic my husband pressed was my blog. He has been adamant for months that I need an Instagram account for my blog. Honestly, he is probably right. Ok, I know he is right. But I feel like I am still in the learning stages. Plus, with a Facebook Page and Pinterest Account, the idea of adding another social media outlet feels overwhelming. Or maybe it’s fear? Instagram is a completely new platform and isn’t there always a bit of fear when trying something new?

My current goal: to create an Instagram account by the end of summer…

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Be Bold, Be Brave, Be You.

Found this print at Target over the weekend! #TargetForTheWin

This week has been a world wind. Lunches with some wonderful women and one amazing email later, makes me truly thankful for this ride.

Last week I expressed my frustration with the ride and being still. I did promise to give it my best shot though. Funny thing is, when you actually hunker down and get serious, things happen.

It’s on God’s time.

Over the course of the last few months I have changed my outlook, my perspective on life. It’s been AMAZING and has created a cascading affect on everything in my personal life, motherhood especially. This is something I will talk about more in upcoming posts, but for now I will just focus on the present. June – my month to be still and everything that has happened this week.

My week began with giggling girls and fun adventures. Library story time and nature walks, just to name a few. Then a mid-week lunch with a dear friend, whom my girls lovingly refer to as Aunt. She broke up the seriousness of my thoughts with some lighthearted laughter. Obliged my oldest with some SnapChat fun and got the little one to warm up a bit. Sometimes what we need most is to put our thoughts away for a time and just enjoy the moment. Thank you my dear, sweet friend!

Thursday met with an e-mail I had been anxiously awaiting. I was stunned to see it in my inbox. It took me a moment, but I dived right in! The e-mail was EVERYTHING I needed to hear. Funny how that works right!? She talked about the three phases of entrepreneurship- Enlightenment, Info Dumping, and Clarity.

As she expressed, I am definitely in the Enlightenment and Info Dumping phases. I am reading and listening to everything I can get my hands on. It’s as if my soul has been awakened and I am searching for my purpose, my passion. It is difficult to describe, but I’ll try. It’s like looking at a dim screen with dull colors. The more I listen and read, the more the screen brightens and the colors become vibrant. The sky is not the limit, there is no limit to what I can accomplish.

“Be still and know that I am God.” -Psalm 46:10

Friday came and I found myself driving more than an hour to have lunch with some wonderful women I only get to see a few times a year. I took this opportunity to talk with God. First thanking him for this amazing life. Then telling him I am working on Being Still, but that it’s a lot harder than I thought it would. I told him about the questions I was still pondering and my quest for answers. I also acknowledged that I knew these answers would come on his time and I would continue making an effort to focus on the ride.

God’s Presences.

During lunch I was speaking to these lovely ladies, telling them everything about my journey. It was as if God was speaking through them, telling me exactly what I needed to hear. I see a possible destination in site. The path is much clearer now. It’s going to take a lot of effort and hard work, but I will get there.

For now, I am going to sit back and enjoy the ride!

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June : A Month To Be Still

I have been in a constant creative battle with myself. Pondering, wondering, searching – quiet frustratingly so, for my path. Which road do I take? Which path do I journey down? What door is the right one?

I have been reading a lot lately. Knowledge is power. Once you know something, you can’t un-know it. This can be a double edged sword. There is so much knowledge to be gained through reading, but the question remains the same. What do I do with all of this new found knowledge?

Honestly, I have no idea! It has bombard my every thought. I read books, listen to podcasts, and scour through e-mails and I feel as though I am no closer to an answer. Don’t get me wrong, I love being a mom. It’s everything! Absolutely everything! It’s the center of my being. Yet I feel a creative passion burning inside, looking for a way out.

As I scroll through my newsfeed, I see fellow moms working their own little businesses. Filling their creative souls through art, baking, fitness, and various other products. Here I am, like a sitting duck in the middle of a pond. I can’t see the shore and I have no idea which direction I should start swimming.

“Be still and know that I am God.” -Psalm 46:10

After talking with a dear family member they suggested I take a month to Be Still. What does that mean? It means I carry on, business as usual. I continue reading, listening to podcasts, and blogging. I don’t think about my creative path. I put that aside. I don’t agonize over the destination, I simply enjoy the ride.

June is my month. It’s my month to BE STILL. 

I must admit, it’s a lot harder than I thought it would be. It sounded easy. Carry on as I normally do without all of the added debate about my life’s path. But there I was on day one, pondering all of life’s monumental possibilities. If only I hadn’t listened to that podcast or read that e-mail. But that’s not true. Even if I hadn’t done those things, I am sure I would still be in wonder. I just probably wouldn’t be doing it on day one.

For everything there is a season. So, here I am. Trying to be still. Focusing on the journey, not the destination. Or at least, I am working on it.

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A May Birthday And A Dragonfly Nursery

Photo Credit: Colette Brockman Photography

If you have been with me from the start, then you know I am a planner by nature. I am always thinking ahead – to the next occasion, the next milestone. I spend months prepping and planning every detail to emulate the vision in my head.

Unfortunately, we can’t always plan ahead. We can’t always prepare ourselves for what is to come. Life is a journey, filled with both immense  joy and deep sorrow.

In 2012, I was pregnant with my first child. I was basking in the joy of this new chapter in our lives. This new journey I was about to embark on, when tragedy struck. I lost a very dear friend. A childhood friend. We had grown up together during those very awkward high school years. Although college lead us down separate paths, we were able to stay consistent in our friendship and when I married my husband in 2009, she was right there by my side.

I like to think that each friendship we have brings something different to the table. A unique social quality within our own inner circle that no one else could possess. She was a straight shooter. Meaning, she always told it like it was. No sugar coating or dancing around a hard topic. She wasn’t mean or harsh. She was incredibly thoughtful and wise. She was the perfect person to talk to when you were trying to sort through something. That’s what I tell people. That’s what she brought to the table.

Since her passing, I have never meet another person who possesses the same quality. Something that is both wonderful and extremely frustrating all at the same time.

Sometimes when I am driving somewhere by myself, I will talk to her about everything and nothing. Wheeling her to help me sort through things or give me a sign as to which path I should take next. Often times, just telling her how much I miss her…

So I thought, what better way to celebrate my dear friends birthday today, then by talking about the inspiration behind my second daughters nursery.

A Dragonfly Nursery

After her passing, I found a necklace she had given to me as a birthday gift one year. The stone was a lavender hue, with metal dragonflies surrounding the top. In that moment, it occurred to me that this would make the perfect nursery theme for a little girl.

While pink is my signature color and I had already settled on butterflies for my daughters nursery, I knew if I ever had a second daughter, this necklace would be the inspiration behind her nursery. And three years later, it was meant to be.

So as you make your way down the hall, you will find a small nursery donned in her signature color. Complete with lavender sheets, curtains, a changing cover, and crib quilt. Beyond the colorful accents of the room you will notice something else – dragonfly’s all a flutter.

Nursery Decor

  • Dragonfly mirrors I purchased from Amazon.
  • Purple and gray dragonflies cut out of card stock, so friends and family could write well-wishes to baby “A.”
  • Dragonfly digital art piece from ArtsyTypeShop on Etsy. She was wonderful about changing the font to a lavender color!
  • The most important piece of decor – The Dragonfly Necklace. 

**Frames, hook, and mirror purchased at Hobby Lobby.

Happy Birthday my friend. I have yet to meet anyone who can match your qualities. As you peek in on each of my girls, I hope your heart is full.

But most of all…

“I hope you touch dragonflies and stars, dance with fairies and talk to the moon.”

Love always,

Nikki

{Baby Ballerina} : Fleeting Moments

Last Saturday we attended my daughters first dance recital. It was so adorable! Seriously, watching all those baby ballerina’s move about was the sweetest sight! My girl was so proud of herself, you could see the excitement in her little face. She was one of the eager ones. Truly fearless, that’s my girl! She got right up there and gave it her all. I just love all the pink, frilly things that come with having a little girl! Probably because I have always been a girly, girl myself. So watching her twirly around in a frilly pink tutu was highlight for me!

As a mother, this was a moment I had dreamed of since before she was born and it flew by in an instant. After all, these precious little moments are so fleeting… But it was more than that. I feel as though I was so caught up in capturing every moment on camera, that I forgot to be present IN the moment. Everything went so quickly and I didn’t stop to take it all in. Later that evening, I looked back at the footage I had captured and realized I missed some things at time. It definitely bothered me that I was just now noticing them on film…

While I am not prefect and I don’t have the solution to the problem, at least now I am more aware. So next time I will be able to be more present IN the moment. Next time I will work on creating a better balance between capturing each moment and being present IN the moment. Because I don’t want to miss one single twirl from my Baby Ballerina

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