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A May Birthday And A Dragonfly Nursery

Photo Credit: Colette Brockman Photography

If you have been with me from the start, then you know I am a planner by nature. I am always thinking ahead – to the next occasion, the next milestone. I spend months prepping and planning every detail to emulate the vision in my head.

Unfortunately, we can’t always plan ahead. We can’t always prepare ourselves for what is to come. Life is a journey, filled with both immense  joy and deep sorrow.

In 2012, I was pregnant with my first child. I was basking in the joy of this new chapter in our lives. This new journey I was about to embark on, when tragedy struck. I lost a very dear friend. A childhood friend. We had grown up together during those very awkward high school years. Although college lead us down separate paths, we were able to stay consistent in our friendship and when I married my husband in 2009, she was right there by my side.

I like to think that each friendship we have brings something different to the table. A unique social quality within our own inner circle that no one else could possess. She was a straight shooter. Meaning, she always told it like it was. No sugar coating or dancing around a hard topic. She wasn’t mean or harsh. She was incredibly thoughtful and wise. She was the perfect person to talk to when you were trying to sort through something. That’s what I tell people. That’s what she brought to the table.

Since her passing, I have never meet another person who possesses the same quality. Something that is both wonderful and extremely frustrating all at the same time.

Sometimes when I am driving somewhere by myself, I will talk to her about everything and nothing. Wheeling her to help me sort through things or give me a sign as to which path I should take next. Often times, just telling her how much I miss her…

So I thought, what better way to celebrate my dear friends birthday today, then by talking about the inspiration behind my second daughters nursery.

A Dragonfly Nursery

After her passing, I found a necklace she had given to me as a birthday gift one year. The stone was a lavender hue, with metal dragonflies surrounding the top. In that moment, it occurred to me that this would make the perfect nursery theme for a little girl.

While pink is my signature color and I had already settled on butterflies for my daughters nursery, I knew if I ever had a second daughter, this necklace would be the inspiration behind her nursery. And three years later, it was meant to be.

So as you make your way down the hall, you will find a small nursery donned in her signature color. Complete with lavender sheets, curtains, a changing cover, and crib quilt. Beyond the colorful accents of the room you will notice something else – dragonfly’s all a flutter.

Nursery Decor

  • Dragonfly mirrors I purchased from Amazon.
  • Purple and gray dragonflies cut out of card stock, so friends and family could write well-wishes to baby “A.”
  • Dragonfly digital art piece from ArtsyTypeShop on Etsy. She was wonderful about changing the font to a lavender color!
  • The most important piece of decor – The Dragonfly Necklace. 

**Frames, hook, and mirror purchased at Hobby Lobby.

Happy Birthday my friend. I have yet to meet anyone who can match your qualities. As you peek in on each of my girls, I hope your heart is full.

But most of all…

“I hope you touch dragonflies and stars, dance with fairies and talk to the moon.”

Love always,

Nikki

{Baby Ballerina} : Fleeting Moments

Last Saturday we attended my daughters first dance recital. It was so adorable! Seriously, watching all those baby ballerina’s move about was the sweetest sight! My girl was so proud of herself, you could see the excitement in her little face. She was one of the eager ones. Truly fearless, that’s my girl! She got right up there and gave it her all. I just love all the pink, frilly things that come with having a little girl! Probably because I have always been a girly, girl myself. So watching her twirly around in a frilly pink tutu was highlight for me!

As a mother, this was a moment I had dreamed of since before she was born and it flew by in an instant. After all, these precious little moments are so fleeting… But it was more than that. I feel as though I was so caught up in capturing every moment on camera, that I forgot to be present IN the moment. Everything went so quickly and I didn’t stop to take it all in. Later that evening, I looked back at the footage I had captured and realized I missed some things at time. It definitely bothered me that I was just now noticing them on film…

While I am not prefect and I don’t have the solution to the problem, at least now I am more aware. So next time I will be able to be more present IN the moment. Next time I will work on creating a better balance between capturing each moment and being present IN the moment. Because I don’t want to miss one single twirl from my Baby Ballerina

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Who Am I?

Who am I now?

This is a question I still struggle with, a little over two years into my motherhood journey. Let me previse this with, I love being a stay-at-home mom. I enjoy every precious moment with her and I wouldn’t change it! Now, with that being said, let me dive into what I mean.

Before I had my daughter, I measured myself based on academic achievements and my job title. I know these things don’t make up who I am as a person, but they are the tools I used to measure myself with. Even now when people ask what I do for a living I say, “I am a stay-at-home mom, but before I had my daughter I was a teacher.” For some reason I always feel the need to throw that in there. As if saying I am a stay-at-home mom doesn’t count or isn’t good enough. Silly right?

Have any of you ever gone through something like this?

In truth, I know that being a stay-at-home mom is a very important job. It’s the most important job I will EVER have! It’s a job full of love, fun, tantrums, tears, laughter, milestones, and LOTS of patience. So why do I feel the need to add to my verbal resume? After a lot of thought, I realized its because I have always measured myself by my academic achievements. Somewhere along the line I married who I am based solely upon my academics…

When I first had the idea for this post, I sat down to really think about how I felt about who I am. But more importantly, I tried to think about who I really am outside of my academic achievements. So here goes…

I am a woman.

I am a wife.

I am a mother.

I am a lover of photography.

I am patient at times.

I am antsy at times.

I am kind.

I am Bold.

I am Brave.

I am ME!

Who are you?

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Be {Brave}

I have been thinking about this first post for months now – going over it and over it in my head. At one point I could hear Meredith Grey’s voice reading my post aloud, as she does at the beginning of every Grey’s Anatomy episode. That would be AMAZING, right!? But instead, (deep breathe) it’s me and MY thoughts – not an actress reading a script. So here goes…

Fears… We all have them. They can either light you up or shut you down. Sometimes our fears are what keep us safe and out of harms way, but all too often they keep us trapped – never stepping out of our comfort zone. We stay in this safe place, hoping to try something new without the intension of ever actually doing it.

This was a conservation I recently had with my Mother-in-law shortly after our big move. I was nervous and scared, unsure of what the future held for me. In all her sweet wisdom, she shared an important piece of advice, “Do something once a week that scares you.” I didn’t realize it at the time, but that small piece of advice would quickly become a huge part of my life.

{BRAVE}

Now let me clarify, she didn’t mean go skydiving or climb Everest. She simple meant step out of your comfort zone – which can mean different things to different people. For me, at the time, it meant leaving the house and exploring the area on my own. Driving to new places with my daughter and trying to make friends. But it quickly spiraled into so much more! Somehow I developed the “Brave” motto and here I am, putting myself out there. Sharing my life with you. For me, it doesn’t get much Braver!

Say what you wanna say

And let the words fall out

Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say

And let the words fall out

Honestly I wanna see you be brave

– Sara Bareilles

I want this blog to encompass who I am as a wife, mother, and a woman. My goal is for you, my readers, to be as passionate about what I write as I am. Most importantly, I want to be {BRAVE} and share my thoughts, experiences, and struggles. I hope you will feel comfortable enough to do the same with me! I want to see you be {BRAVE}!

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